After Ecstasy:
Memoir of an Observant Doubter

After Ecstasy: Memoir of an Observant Doubter is my new memoir (for which I am currently seeking representation/publication). It is a story for people who take the search for meaning seriously, but do not want to be told precisely what they must believe. It’s a book for ex-believers, nonbelievers, rock-solid believers, and those of us whose doubt-o-meters have to be reset daily. I believe there are many of us. We just don’t make as much noise as the people on either end of the faith spectrum: the noisy, Trump-apologist fundamentalists, OR the unmovable atheists.

But speaking of Trump, and the alarming fact that many fundamentalists believe that God ordained him to be our president, I think it is high time we doubters spoke up. It is time to change the conversation. Faith is not a yes-or-no question. Belief is not a clubhouse with one and only one password.

“Not knowing for certain, but refusing to give way to those who claim certainty, was a privilege I had never allowed myself,” Tara Westover writes, in her acclaimed memoir, Educated.

I’m with Westover: Doubt is a privilege.

And I’m with Brian McClaren, who writes in his latest book, The Great Spiritual Migration: From a System of Beliefs to a Way of Life: “Imagine what would happen if for the next 500 years, our churches put as much energy into the formation of generous, Christ-like disciples as we have put into getting people to believe certain things or show up at certain buildings or observe certain taboos.”